I am a very emotional person who trys to build walls up to protect me from unwanted hurt. People who have known me for a while can see beyond those walls and know when something is up with me. I have been down lately because I am about to be 26 years old (October 4) and feel as if I have done nothing. (I mean I have done some THINGS but follow me before you throw my same talks back at me)
Growing up I always wanted to be married and have children (two to be exact) by 25. Well that won’t be happening anytime soon.
I have been looking for a full-time job since 2008…had a short stint as a foster care worker and got fired..
I do not have any savings.
I do not have the PUREST support of my family for my business endeavours.
I at times feel like I am going to fail.
I am in a graduate program I no longer want but will finish because I have just one more semester.
The talk of not having a job is a real sore subject for me especially since I have been applying for jobs that I am qualified for, but the issue I am having is that I really DON’T want to work for someone else.
I want to have some odd jobs where I work for someone else but my schedule will have to be put into the contract. The point of this post is to tell you and myself to keep on pushing. Your day will come!! Keep working hard, and working on your dreams to get to where you are going. When you have a vision FOLLOW that vision even if you only have the support of God. He will not fail you and just when you think he has forgotten about you things will have been turned around.
I may not be where I thought or feel I should be but I will be there soon. Time out for the pitty sessions I have been giving because of others expectations on my life. Yes times are hard, but they are not supposed to be easy. I love what I do and the progress shows. The phone calls are coming, the clients are coming, the business meetings are coming, and the speaking engagements are coming.
I know they are.
I know what I have to do to align myself to receive these abundant blessings God is going to be to showering on me soon. The first is to STOP trying to live up to what someone one else wanted for my life. This is MY life and I have to act like it. No sense in crying over spoiled milk. Gonna wipe it up and keep on moving and trucking it along.
Thanks for reading, tell me how you push past living for YOU and no one else.